How Intuition Led Me Back to My Voice
Some ideas come and go.
And then some arrive through intuition so clearly that even if you try to delay them, overthink them, or put them on the shelf for later, they keep coming back.
That was this podcast.
Intuitive AF² was never just a cute idea I had one day. It felt downloaded. The name came through. The concept came through. The energy of it came through. It was one of those things I felt in my body before I could fully explain it with words. I just knew it was something I was meant to create.
And still, it took me a long time to bring it to life.
Not because the intuition was wrong.
Not because the vision was not real.
And not because I was not capable.
It took time because sometimes intuition gives you the vision before you have fully built the courage to trust yourself enough to follow it.
That was my journey.
For a long time, I wanted to do this podcast with someone else. I loved the idea of shared energy, conversation, chemistry, and creating something alongside another person. Over time, I asked a few people. Some said yes. Some genuinely wanted to. Some probably thought they wanted to. But every time it seemed like it might come together, something happened. Timing changed. Life got in the way. Circumstances shifted. The door closed.
Again and again.
And yes, part of the delay had to do with that.
But if I’m being honest, a lot of it was me too.
I stalled.
I overthought.
I questioned myself.
I got tangled up in the tech, the money, the timing, the setup, and all the reasons why it was not the right moment yet.
Meanwhile, I was thinking that my intuition was probably in the corner staring at me like, “So... are we doing this or are we collecting more signs for sport?” Guilting and shaming myself for not starting.
But life was also handing me things that were much bigger than a delayed creative project.
Behind the scenes, I was navigating one of the hardest chapters of my life. I was facing circumstances that were painful, heavy, and deeply out of my control. I do not need to go into every detail here to tell you this: it was several years, creating a season that stole a lot from me.
It stole my voice.
It stole my joy.
It made me question who I was.
It made me question what I believed.
It even made me question the very things I teach.
And that kind of unraveling changes you.
Especially when you are the person who is always creating safe space for everyone else. When you are the one reminding people they are enough. When you are the one holding space, offering perspective, helping people come back to themselves. When you are the trusted intuitive, reminding those who seek guidance, “everything is going to make sense someday”.
At some point, I had to ask myself a very uncomfortable question:
Did I believe that about me too? Because everything that I teach, I’ve witnessed the truth of all of it in my own lived experiences.
Because it is one thing to tell other people they are enough.
It is another thing entirely to stand in the middle of your own pain, your own breakdown, your own becoming, and believe that you are enough too.
Enough to trust yourself.
Enough to begin.
Enough to create.
Enough to follow what intuition has been nudging, whispering, and honestly air-horning into your spirit for a long time.
And I think that is what this podcast journey really became for me.
Not just a launch.
Not just content.
Not just another thing to do.
It became a journey of believing myself.
Believing that what was downloaded to me through intuition was real. Believing that I did not need someone else to validate the vision before I acted on it. Believing that maybe the reason this kept not coming together with anyone else was because I was meant to do it on my own first.
That part was hard for me.
Because I did want someone beside me.
I did want support.
I did want partnership.
But everything I have been through broke me down to bare bones and soul. And somewhere in that stripping down was the deeper lesson: I had to believe I was enough and capable before I could fully follow what intuition had already given me.
I had to trust that if this vision was given to me, then I was also capable of carrying it.
I had to stop looking outside of myself for permission.
I had to stop waiting for perfect conditions.
I had to stop asking whether I was enough.
Because the deeper lesson underneath all of this was not just launch the podcast.
It was this:
Trust your voice.
Trust your intuition.
Trust what has been placed on your heart.
Trust that you are capable of holding what was given to you.
That truth hits even deeper when I look at the photo I chose for this blog: me sitting in a yoga pose at the top of Bear Mountain wearing a shirt that says, You Are Enough.
Honestly, that feels like the whole story in one image.
Because this podcast is not just about intuition as a concept. It is about what happens when intuition becomes the thing that carries you back to yourself. When life has shaken your confidence, stolen your joy, and made you question everything, intuition becomes more than a whisper. It becomes a lifeline.
That is what Intuitive AF² is for me.
It is where intuition meets real life.
Where spirituality gets honest.
Where healing is human.
Where depth, truth, humor, grief, and real conversation get to exist in the same room.
I did not want this to be a podcast that floats somewhere above real life pretending everything is perfectly aligned all the time.
I wanted it to be real.
Grounded.
Honest.
Intuitive.
Unfiltered.
Healing, but not performative.
The first few episodes speak directly to intuition because that is where all of this began. And in a lot of ways, that is where I began again too.
Not as a perfect version of myself.
Not as someone with all the answers.
But as someone who has been broken open enough to know the difference between performing and telling the truth.
And the truth is this:
This podcast was downloaded to me a while ago. But I think my soul needed time to catch up to what my intuition already knew.
I needed to rebuild my relationship with my own voice. I needed to stop abandoning what I knew deep down because I was scared, tired, hurt, or waiting for someone else to make it easier. I needed to believe that I was enough to begin, even if I was beginning alone.
So this launch means more to me than putting a podcast out into the world.
It is a reclamation.
A return.
A reminder.
A promise to myself that I will honor what intuition gives me, even when it asks me to trust myself before the evidence arrives.
If you are reading this and you have been sitting on something your intuition has been nudging you toward, let this be your reminder:
You do not need every answer before you begin.
You do not need someone else to validate what your soul already knows.
You do not need to become more worthy before you trust what is coming through you.
And most importantly, trust the divine timing when things aren’t playing out the way you want it to because they are indeed, actually playing out the way your soul needs.
Sometimes the work is simply this:
To believe you are enough before life proves it to you.
Intuitive AF² is finally here.
And maybe this podcast was never just about using my voice.
Maybe it was about learning to trust it again.